Only Love Can Hurt Like This

We all have those songs that perfectly describe a relationship. For some it's an old country twang, others it may be a slow, 70's ballad and sometimes Taylor Swift gets it spot on. 
This particular experience I had was perfectly encapsulated by a certain Paloma Faith song. 
I love the experience of hearing a song and the sudden epiphany of realizing that it completely captures a certain relationship and how it immediately becomes so incredibly important and personal. 

For me, this song got to me before the first verse was even finished. It reminded me of a relationship I was still struggling with and still occupies my mind from time to time. 
I thought I had gotten extremely close to someone and thought we had a mutually caring relationship but now I'm questioning if they ever even really cared about me at all or if they were just using me because they were lonely and recognized how insecure and vulnerable I am. 
And like the song, I keep telling myself that I really don't care and that I'm just fine without him but then all of the feelings come back whenever I'm alone with him and he shows me any kind of affection. Looking at it now, I think he is fully aware of how much I care about him and he takes advantage of it. 

At the same time I was extremely hypocritical with how I dealt with our relationship. We never had any exclusive commitment to each other and I proceeded to see other people but then when he hooked up with someone else, I felt crushed. And I knew I had no right to be upset. We were the only ones that knew what we were doing and I had seen other people without even thinking about it. 
This song helps me to analyze my feelings about the situation and realize just how much I let myself get manipulated and used over and over again. I fall too, hard too fast and let people walk all over me but I let it happen if I believe I am helping them when they do.  

I tell myself you don't mean a thing
And what we got, got no hold on me
But when you're not there, I just crumble
I tell myself I don't care that much
But I feel like I'll die til I feel your touch

Only love, only love can hurt like this
Only love can hurt like this
Must have been a deadly kiss
Only love can hurt like this

Say I wouldn't care if you walked away
But every time you're near, I'm begging you to stay
And when you come close, I just tremble
And every time, every time you go
It's like a knife that cuts right through my soul

Only love, only love can hurt like this
Only love can hurt like this
Must have been a deadly kiss
Only love can hurt like this
Your kisses burn into my skin
Only love can hurt like this

But it's the sweetest pain
Burning hot through my veins
Love is torture, makes me more sure
Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this
Only love can hurt like this
Must have been a deadly kiss
Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this
Your kisses burn into my skin
Only love can hurt like this
Only love can hurt like this
Save me, save me
Only love, only love
Cause only love can hurt like this
And it must have been a deadly kiss