You & Milk
I haven't posted on this blog since last semester and I'm so sad I have been so bad at keeping it updated but it's finally October and I'm going to try and write more.
Since last semester ended,
I ended a serious relationship.
Fell for the wrong guy. Twice.
Discovered a new kind of love.
Learned a lot about myself.
Did something stupid.
Realized I am still learning from countless past mistakes.
Made new friends.
Restrengthened old friendships.
Worked a full time job at minimum wage.
Exercised discipline and extreme responsibility.
Did something I swore I would never do and have looked down on others for.
Lied to myself.
Lied to people I love.
Exercised serious initiative.
Learned new things about people.
Gave up trying to believe other people's bullshit.
Lost respect for someone very special to me.
Started outgrowing people who used to be my world.
Let myself get used...over and over.
Succumbed to crippling insecurities.
Discovered a new level of emotional exhaustion.
Put my energy into people who don't care about me as much as I cared about them.
Stopped acting out of obligation. It's not worth it.
The constant cycle of living and learning continues, but I can at least acknowledge what I did wrong and what I can learn from it. I also realize that I am learning more all the time and ultimately it is helping me become a better version of myself. I'm becoming my own, unique person, not someone that I was expected to be.
At the end of this month I will be turning 20 years old. At this point in my life I have done countless things that I never thought I would do. Some of them good, some of them not so good but I can at least say that I do not have any regrets. I made conscious decisions which resulted in positive and negative consequences. But those actions were my own. And that knowledge gives me comfort, that I alone am responsible for how my life unfolds.
This post is going to have two songs.
To me, The 1975 is October music. Maybe because when I saw them perform it was October. I'm not really sure but I know that The 1975 sounds like Fall and these two songs mean a lot to me and appeared together on the "Sex" EP.
Since last semester ended,
I ended a serious relationship.
Fell for the wrong guy. Twice.
Discovered a new kind of love.
Learned a lot about myself.
Did something stupid.
Realized I am still learning from countless past mistakes.
Made new friends.
Restrengthened old friendships.
Worked a full time job at minimum wage.
Exercised discipline and extreme responsibility.
Did something I swore I would never do and have looked down on others for.
Lied to myself.
Lied to people I love.
Exercised serious initiative.
Learned new things about people.
Gave up trying to believe other people's bullshit.
Lost respect for someone very special to me.
Started outgrowing people who used to be my world.
Let myself get used...over and over.
Succumbed to crippling insecurities.
Discovered a new level of emotional exhaustion.
Put my energy into people who don't care about me as much as I cared about them.
Stopped acting out of obligation. It's not worth it.
The constant cycle of living and learning continues, but I can at least acknowledge what I did wrong and what I can learn from it. I also realize that I am learning more all the time and ultimately it is helping me become a better version of myself. I'm becoming my own, unique person, not someone that I was expected to be.
At the end of this month I will be turning 20 years old. At this point in my life I have done countless things that I never thought I would do. Some of them good, some of them not so good but I can at least say that I do not have any regrets. I made conscious decisions which resulted in positive and negative consequences. But those actions were my own. And that knowledge gives me comfort, that I alone am responsible for how my life unfolds.
This post is going to have two songs.
To me, The 1975 is October music. Maybe because when I saw them perform it was October. I'm not really sure but I know that The 1975 sounds like Fall and these two songs mean a lot to me and appeared together on the "Sex" EP.
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